It’s not the heartbreak that kills you

It’s the desperation

The wanting

Waiting

For him to take you back

When all along it was written in the stars that it was never meant to last

And that’s all you can think about

When you look up at the moon and you see his face carved into it

When everywhere you go you can smell his old cologne

The one he said he wouldn’t wear, but he wore it anyway because it reminded him of you

When all you can taste is the salt pouring from your eyes

When all you hear is his voice coming down from the sky

Like he was an angel

But truly he was the devil in disguise

He liked you better with makeup on, so now you can’t take it off

He said you were getting fat, so now you can’t stop starving yourself

You found someone new, but it will never be the same

Because you’ve learned to live with the pieces of your broken frame

You’re heart is shattered and he left you to pick it back up

But what would it be like to try one more time after all the times he said he was sorry?

When he really wasn’t

You deserve so much better than him

But he’s all you dream about at night

Lingering like the smell of the pumpkin spice

That he used to buy you at that little coffee shop

But now you’ll never learn to open back up

Because he took the key to your heart

And now there’s no such thing as a fresh start