The Ace of Cups (or: An Unwanted Pentecost)
Maybe you thought your cup
was empty when the love came
spilling out—
your chapped lips
pressed against the rim
to wash away the taste of doubt
maybe you thought its contents toxic,
a complex bacterial court—
but from that stagnant cup
you drank a thick, sweet summer port
I know how dear the taste would be
from the cup that we now share.
I know it when our fingers brush,
when I smell your coconut-washed hair,
when I hear your muted laughter
& you catch me in a stare.
Loneliness dulls the senses
to hide from yearning’s phantom touch,
and yet, sweetheart, your defenses
can’t do much to stop the flood
You say you have a pigeon heart,
that you’re scavenging romance,
a feral thing, a pest at best,
not worth a second glance.
But darling, you’re a shining dove,
in green and grey or white,
a feathered sign sent from above,
crowned in a holy light.
We can close our eyes against it
but the light will still bleed through
in pinks & reds and flush away
the gloom inside of you.
Your palm provides the home
that my hand struggled to find,
your mouth provides the words
that scrub the worries from my mind—
to this deluge, I think, my darling,
we must now resign,
skin sticky with the wine we spilt,
tongue touching the divine,
our bodies not quite temples, no,
but I’ll make yours a shrine.
in our lazy whitsun worship
you wonder what my cup might bring,
& we wander endlessly around
ponds flustered by the spring—
the love that you & I could share
would make the ground so lush & green,
and if we use this love with care,
not flood the streets while unaware,
we could grow ourselves a garden
unlike any one you’ve seen.
perhaps one day we’ll find
that we have nothing left to drink
& leave this cup, then empty,
in an overflowing sink.
But in this moment, darling,
my heart’s a brand new waterfall,
& I can’t contain it, dear.
You head my earnest call,
hold out the cup you thought long-dry
& catch me when I fall.