it came to a stop

the beating of my heart

the fear took control

i told you i was scared

so i push you out

i sabotage

my only shot at real love

and now you’re wounded

because my mind wouldn’t stop screaming

and you were frail so i stopped the attack

and i stitched you up

with a hundred red lipped kisses

and i cried too

my heart only wants you

but sometimes i think it’s too much

i think you’d be better off without me

monsters under my bed said you’d never love me

but they were only shadows

and when daylight came, you were still there

but then i kept fist fighting with my heart

turning it on and then right back off

in my head i wanted you to be the villain

but you’re just a saint

and i spilled blood when no one told me to

tore it all up even though i loved you

it wasn’t your fault but you atoned

but i just closed the door and bolted it tight

while you were begging for me to let in the light

and i lit it all up thinking you would just leave

i was tied down and it should’ve been by you

instead all i did was accuse

“he said, she said” but what about you?

burned you out trying to make myself bulletproof

and now we’re both scarred because of me

but i don’t really want to fight this

i keep expecting betrayal but all you want is

my red-lipped kisses