POEM STARTER

Submitted by Brittany Lawson

Write a poem about someone stuck in a cycle of self destruction. Just as they are about to exit the cycle or have a breakthrough, the poem starts back at the beginning.

Sorry For This (Random BS)

I can’t

I can’t do this anymore. I am tired of everything. I am so out of place right now. I don’t feel happy, sure I will laugh at the things my classmates do or say.

Sure, my heart skips a beat when the girl I like looks at me but I feel none of it. I feel numb. I think I might be in depression again. I have been getting more and more silent and zoning out often. I feel no pleasure in the things I used to like to do.

My thoughts cloud my mind and overcome all my feelings. Overthinking everything that I did and do. You know video games? I like doing those. Not anymore. I use them to distract my mind but… they don’t do that anymore! I feel like my world is in black and white right now. Yet there are so many reasons I should be happy. But I just can’t be.

I don’t know whats wrong with me! I just wish my pain would just go away. I wish people cared enough to truly ask me if I was ok! I hate this! Man… anger building, patience diminishing, coldheartedness coming, kindness struggling to remain. I don’t even know why I am writing this. Ugh… whatever, I’ll just deal with it. I don’t need anyone anyway.

Sorry.😞

Comments 11

𝔖𝔥𝔞𝔡𝔬𝔴

7 months ago

We are always here as a community, as individuals and as ears to listen. You are worthy and always will be, it takes strength to do what you have done, don’t ever be sorry 🖤

Jewelie Rain

7 months ago

I think it’s brave to talk about what you are dealing with. Expressing feelings, no matter the gender, can be really difficult. It is such a horrible feeling, feeling numb to others but at the same time feeling all the negative emotions. I hope that you wrote this because this is a safe space for you. I hope it stays that way <3

S̷нα∂σω Q̷υєєη 🖤

7 months ago

People do stupid bs to make you feel bad or to get back at you. People do stuff to put you down and make you hate yourself. I know this, because I see it all the time. The victims don’t see it until after it’s over with. After they’re scarred for life, after they lay awake at night and think about it until their head hurts.

I won’t say I’m sorry, or some dry, lame-ass shit. I won’t say I understand or go into detail about how I know what it’s like. Because I don’t. Everyone goes through their their own pain and it’s always in a different way, especially with coping.

But I will say that I know you’re an amazing friend. You’ve been there for me, you’ve agreed, you’ve given feedback, you’ve chatted with me when I needed it, and you haven’t not one reason or thing to be sorry for. You’re super nice in a way the world doesn’t deserve, you think about others before yourself; anyone with enough sense would see that.

And everyone needs someone. Some people think they don’t- but eventually, even the villain needs someone to cheer them up or make them feel good about themselves (even if it’s in an evil way).

I also know how some fuckers claim men (boys) can’t cry. Which is a fairly large pile of cow shit, when someone needs to cry they do. Even if it’s a loud, bawling, baby cry on the bathroom floor. We’ve all been there. All that matters is that you have a shoulder to lean on, a pair of arms to comfort you. Undoubtedly you do.

I know you do.

Kayla Lynn

7 months ago

You are not alone. You exist and you are not alone in your feelings. In feeling numb, feeling too much all at once. There is nothing wrong with you, nothing you should or shouldn’t do. You do not need to be fixed. You are not alone, I see you and I hear you!

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7 months ago

Its ok no need to apologize but I know one thing that can fix all of this and make you feel better too

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