You know that feeling

When you feel yourself peeling

Peeling away from reality

Feeling yourself fly away, high and far

Let me feel that peace

That overtaking peace

Where one can speak

Without feeling drowned deep

Society’s hold on me is pressuring

Pressing my skin, leaving bruises and scars

What can I do to make this go away?

What can I do to destroy this pain?

People say that we’re all okay

It’ll get better, just wait

I’m impatient—I want to go to Neverland

Forever

Is that why _Lost Boy_ is calling me?

Or is it my mind, succumbing me

To the edges of temptation and death

Can I die and live? I felt that once

Your soul leaving your body

I wonder…I wonder if it can take me away again

I try to distract myself

Humming and singing

And sometimes it works

And sometimes reality takes me back down

I’m deathly afraid of open water

That deep hole of gravity-defy chemicals

That wants to kill you

That won’t help you if you thrash and cry out

I almost drowned once

Maybe that’s why

And maybe that’s why I want to return to it

I’ve felt that, that silence, that floating feeling

Take me away please

Once more

Last time

Once more

Hmm

You decline every time

Why do I feel this way?

I was fine before…

Well no, that’s a lie

But things have…progressed

Will they end or get worse

The temptation is growing

It got them young,

Why wouldn’t it get me?

How am I different?

Take me away

Before I do something

I’ll regret