it feels embarrassing to exist

im embarrassed to be walking around in my ugly face acting like im normal

like maybe i look okay

i dont

i look so bad

everyone’s clear skin reflects on the red scabs of my picked and oily skin

everyones clothing style and body shape is towered over by my odd curves and weird, ugly style

my body does the clothes no justice and vice versa

it’s embarrassing to be

to be me

to try to wear makeup to school because then everyone knows i tried to be less ugly and still failed

it’s embarrassing that the same day my lover mentioned my forehead i got bangs to hide it

theyve grown out and wont save me anymore

it’s embarrassing that i got braces for two years and yet my teeth are still crooked

it’s embarrassing that i brush my teeth daily and drink milk i hate and yet my teeth are still yellow and my breath is bad

i brush my tongue twice each time

it’s embarrassing to be me

it really is

how is everyone else pretty

why are they all pretty and i look like this

why does nothing fix my face

why are my eyes so small

i used ti think they were normal but no

theyre too small

my nose is too big and bulbous

my lips are not full enough

my chin is too big

i have no jawline

i am so embarrassing to exist this way