Share a smoke

On the morn

On the noon

On the dinner

On the sex

See the sky

Bright and blue

Dark and grey

Clouds array

Shaped like love

Formed akin to gardens of Eden

With your eyes

I wish to see

 The sky

 The world 

 The love 

The beauty

And sometimes I feel it all in a sudden swoop

Mine and yours

Our times are fun

Never was full

Always Im scared you’ll leave

When in reality you were not there

You’re there but so far

I am only noticing now

        Every action

        Every smile 

        Every tear  

        Every moment I gave to you

  In all of its beauty 

Mine and yours

 We’ve turned from stars to the moon

 And now you’re not there 

Full

Not full

Loved you always

But your not there

Not like I thought I felt

It was all my rose colored glasses

That held you so high

And I struggle

Because I still find my self

Thinking of you of every moment of every day

And

You’re not there

You never were

-emamess