There’s a song that replays in my head

One line circling my mind over and over

Like a carousel that never stops

_“How can you miss someone you’ve never met”_

I miss him

I don’t know him, but I miss him

I miss the boy who’ll hold me safe in his arms

The boy who will move the caterpillars from the blanket under the stars we lay on

Move them because he knows I hate them

And he never wants me to be in pain

To see the things I don’t want to

He shields me from the world, letting me sit in his warmth

God, I miss him so much

I wish he was here with me

Handing me the flowers he bought me,

Daffodils, my favorite

He knows it’s because of the bright yellow that reminds me of summer

He knows my small details like that,

He knows when I'm anxious, he sees my hand in my waves and he knows

He knows when I want to leave, want to just be with him in our own special world, he sees the restless bounce in my knee and he knows.

I want to meet this boy

I want to know this boy

Know his little details, his secrets

I want him to kiss me on our blanket, the one he made sure was empty of the furry critters, the one he laid out for us, cloaked under the stars.

Soon we’d be dancing, in and out of the dark

Through the years, through the lows and high,

I miss you so much

I’ll miss you until I find you

My love, I’m looking, and I know you are to