“Sometimes the only way to really forget everything is to go to sleep” I mutter under my breath as I turn to walk out of Javier’s bedroom. I walk into his living room and straight towards his front door cussing him out as I am leaving. I slam the door, walk down the stairs and towards the street. As soon as I reach the sidewalk near the street, tears start streaming down my face and I look around in confusion not sure where I should go now. I sit down on the sidewalk and wonder what did I ever do to deserve being treated the way Javier treated me.

*Flashback*

October 7, 2021 was the day I first met Javier and I was surprised at how quickly we connected over our love of food, reading and the TV show Supernatural. On April 7, 2022 he asked me to be his girlfriend. I was so excited that I hugged him and said yes. When we weren’t working, we were always hanging out together, trying different food places together and watching Supernatural. He was a smooth talker and charming too. On our six month anniversary, we decided to go all the way. That’s when everything went to hell, he stopped returning my calls and my texts.

*Earlier today (October 12,2022)

I woke up at 8am and got ready to go to work at Stater Bros. Today was the day I was going to talk to Javier. Work went by fast and once I got off at 4pm, I decided to go to his place which was a ten minute walk from my job. Walking speedily, I get to his place at 4:08pm and loudly pound on his door. He lets me in and says we need to talk. I sit down on the couch, he stands with his hands across his chest and his left foot is tapping away. Then, with a smirk on his face he tells me “I don’t want to see you anymore because I got what I wanted from you and I won the bet that I had going with my best friend. You were a good lay but that’s all it was.” I yell, “you lied to me all this time! You never loved me, how could you do this to me!? What did I ever do to deserve getting treated like this!!? Answer me!” Javier turns away and says, “I never did love you, I also hate Supernatural and reading. I only said that I loved them to get into your pants and I was successful.”

*Present*

I cannot believe I fell for him so hard like I did. The pain in my chest hurts, it feels like my heart just ripped in two hundred thousand pieces. My tears just keep coming, my hands start shaking and sweating. My heart is pounding so fast like it’s going to jump out of my chest. I know I need to get home, but I don’t know where home is anymore. All of a sudden I hear this loud continuous beeping sound coming from my pocket, I pull my phone out of my back pocket and on the caller ID it says mom. I answer and she says to me “do you need me to come get you?” I say yes and tell her where I am at. 15 minutes later, she pulls up and we go home. As soon as we get home, she asks if I want to talk and I reply softly no thanks. I go to my room and close the door, climb into bed and pull my covers up to my neck. Eventually after a while of crying, I fall asleep.