Sitting at the back of the parking lot

I watch headlights pass

No one knows I’m dying

I had a revelation

So clear I stopped breathing

My life will be cut short

It’s only a matter of time

It’s not cancer, you see

But cancer of the soul

I’m broken

What is happiness?

I don’t know her

I’ve been fighting half my life,

And I’m tired

So, so tired

How long can I hold on,

Before the sweet embrace of death is just a bit too tempting?

Tears leak out of me

Salt and water

Like the ocean

The ocean, so beautiful,

But filled with darkness herself

I dare say I know her

We are connected by the water

Mine, a drop

Hers, a chasm

But connected none the less

Sometimes, when our shared life force is streaming down my cheeks, she whispers

She tells me that one day, some day,

The purpose of this life will be revealed

And by some magic yet unknown to man

She imbues the salt water that we share

With hope

And it is enough for one more day