I was eager once. Struck by the incredible truth that I, out of all of us, had been chosen, I saw it as exciting. I could hardly wait to get started. That excitement faded quickly enough once the real work started, and I realized just how hard a task it was. Now, it threatens to engulf me, everything else fading into the background as my burden grows exponentially heavier. It is astonishing how very heavy a burden can be when there is no end in sight.