“What’s the most ridiculous thing you’ve believed?” was the hardest question I’ve ever had to answer for a quiz grade. We had to right a five paragraph essay about it, and today my mind was messing with me because I couldn’t focus on anything. Today was not the day to have my focus else where. The essay the next day, and I wrote about four to six sentences. I’ve always been an over thinker, so it was hard to come up with only one.

Some of the many ideas I came up with were…

1. The tooth fairy

Ok well this one makes sense in away. What kid doesn’t believe in the tooth fairy? Now I know there were some families who couldn’t financially provide their kids with the belief of the tooth fairy, but any other kid… Ok looking back at it though the whole tooth fairy thing, it seems a bit creepy. Think about it, a fairy flying into your home without permission to enter your home, to grab a bloody tooth that is under your pillow and used to sit in your mouth connected to a root, and we expected this creature to keep the damn tooth forever? I’m sorry, but I would still like to know where the tooth fairy would have kept all those damn teeth, if she was real.

2. If you eat any kind of seed, that seed will grow into a plant inside you stomach

This ones a bit more far fetched, but for a kid to think this, it’s kind of reasonable. Especially if they are learning about plants or plant growth in school. For example, if you were to eat a strawberry, all of the seeds on that one strawberry, would start to form a strawberry bush.

3. If your feet aren’t under your blanket, the monster under your bed with grab your foot, and pull you under the bed and/ or eat you alive

Ok, but who didn’t believe this? I am genuinely wondering if anyone has ever been able to sleep with their feet out from under their blanket. If you are one of those people who can sleep with no blankets, or your feet are outside of the blankets hanging over the bed then there is most definitely something wrong with you. That shit is scary man. When I was younger I even named the monster under my be Jerry.

For my essay though, I didn’t pick any of these. I chose…

4. Love

I’ve found that believing in love is useless. Love is unrealistic, and not worth my time. Yes, so people have found the love of there lives, and I say good for them. For me, love has failed me in many ways. How am I supposed to believe in love when not even my parents lasted. Everyone told them that their love would last until they were old and grey. It turns out that it only lasted till I was about 15. They were high school sweet hearts, and they couldn’t even make it past 25 years of marriage. Sure that is a long period of time, but not when you’re being told every living second of the day that there was no way in hell that they would make it till forever.

I’ve also dealt with my fair share of cheaters, assholes, and liars. I miss the days where I used to still believe in love. It provided me with hope for future relationships. Those days have been long gone after I walked in on my first boyfriend, cheating on me for the third time now. So what can I say. I gave up on the idea of love, and the “hope” it was said to bring me in bad times when I needed it most.

When I chose love as my topic for the essay, I knew exactly what I was going to write for it. The essay was time consuming, but it was quicker to finish then most of the other essays I have written in the pass. I knew what I was writing about. I have had experience in why I don’t believe in love, so I happened to make my essay more of a diary more then a grade. I jotted down all of my feelings and experiences, and I wrote four pages. I handed in my paper, and the teacher was very impressed. I got a 98 out of 100, and it was my best grade all year.