CW: explicit language / violence

The noise enveloping my senses in thunder screamed it’s agony as I downed another shot. Someone once said I was life of these parties, the blood that kept them flowing. Now as people cheer and I sit in my drowning I wonder if they to lied. But then again it was my fault, I invited Mariner down here just to keep them at bay. To distract any who stumbled down here in the dim flashing lights.

I swirled another shot, carefully mixing in the glitter. If anything was gonna help it was gonna be the same I shit I lived for. My jawclenched as someone slammed themselves into the seat next to me. Ringing erupted through my head. *Damnit*

“Commander Elzie!” he shouted with slurred words and slinging arm around my shoulder. I shoved him off and rubbed my already throbbing head. “You look like shit.” he laughed, his obnoxious sounds burned my ears.

Only turning my head enouph to side eye him, I looked the guard up and down. He was drunk, probably high and staring at me like a hungry dog. His bright red face and bloodshot eyes burned into my brain and something clicked. Carridian. Fuck. “What the hell do you want?” I let the burning alchohal rasp my voice. It rumbled in a low tone that I hope told him I wasn't in the fucking mood.

He cleared his throat and leaned over the bar as if to beckon for a shot. Lious glanced at him then at me, his slight smile turned to a deep frown. “I just wanted to see how you were doing.” he sputtered and snagged one of the few shot glasses I still had.

“It’s spiked.” I snapped and jerked it back.

he chuffed and shook his head. “Does it look like I care? I’m already off.”

I rolled my eyes. When Lious came back after tending to another looking miserable enough for the both of us, he crossed his arms and watched Carridian with narrowed slits. “I told you already, Im cutting you off.”

“Ah so someone hit his damn limit.” I snarked, as the next shot swirled like a pot stones in my stomach. Shaking my head, I turned my gaze to ground.

Lious shifted his attention to me. Before Carridan could object, “you hit yours as well Commander.”

I turned my eyes to him, narrowed into slits with brows knitted together. My heart cranked into knots before could even speak. “I don’t have a fucking limit.”

“yes you do. Everyone does and I've caught you already drinking enough glitter to fund this place.” he didn't move from his relaxed, leaned back cross armed stance. Only a brow lifted into his chalky brown hair.

Pushed myself up, my hand still resting oer my last two shots. “I am the one who funds this place. If you’d like that to continue I suggest you watch you’re shit fucking mouth.”

His eyes widened as his body stiffened. Carridian broke into clashing lauphter with the noise of many. I glanced back him still wishing he wouldn't have shown up. Of all people it had to be his snide ass that took a seat beside me.

My gut tangled into ball of heat and guilt. With a hard sigh I sat back down.

“I’m sorry.” Fuck, I needed more shot’s. His voice still beat in my mind, still made my eyes burn. No matter how much my stomach churned or how uncoordinating my movements became. The gurgling spurts of words killed me.

”it’s for you safety Commander. You drinking and smoking enough of that stuff to overdose a village.” he stepped closer when Caridian’s booming quieted.

“I don’t need safety.” I muttered, swirling another before chasing the tears falling. My face burned, my lung wouldn't work as his face flashed through my mind.

“I’m sorry.”

Another and I slammed it down in demanding for more. Lious stared for a moment before sighing and filling another round of shots. Before he turned back around to hand them to me he snagged something from under the desk and poured a dark liquid in. I watched as he set them carefully in front of me.

His attention found my eyes and he shook his head. “It’s a little stronger.” his breath puffed in small almost inaudible words.

“Fffuuck yeah!” Caridian tried to snag one of the glasses but Lious grabbed his arm and in movement I was to drunk to catch, ended with a dagger to Caridian’s throat.

“Not for you.” his voice rattled.

The scene made me smile, finally the smug bastard was being told off. And threatened, a bonus. I took a shot poured another cloud into its liquid before swallowing the mix in swift gulp. Tangy sting instantly had my eyes blurring in a silent dance of swirls and darkness. my throat tightened and my chest erupted into flames. “W-what the hell di-” I couldn't even cough the words as I jumped up from my seat.

Our eyes looked and Lious’s gaze softened, “it’ll help, just get some rest.” he grabbed my wrists and pulled me back onto my stool. I tried to pull away but my limbs were too weak to even move. I was sling over the bar as my vision faded into a blur of darkness.

This scene is based from a character in my Wattpad series, VALENCE.

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