My best friend texted me

Announcing some great news

Squealing with excitement

She showed me her

Babyfilled ultrasound views

I knew that she was happy

As I should have been too

Talking to my mother

She told me about her cruise

How my dad and her

Would see the fjords and

Enjoy the pretty views

I knew that she was happy

As I should have been too

Seeing all my friends from highschool

Who are all so bloody cool

Sharing their lives and milestones

On their social media

And that of their children too

And I know that they are happy

As I should be for them too

And me

I know I’m at a standstill

And I know that’s okay too

But I have to admit

That I am not happy, not as I should

For I feel like

Instead of moving forwards

I am going on a backwards move