Perpetually lost in thought.

My mind is a riptide, pulling me further and further into a world of darkness and confusion.

Twisting. Turning. Tumbling.

I resist.

I fail.

Yet again I’m submerged in obsession, agitation and self loathing.

Pained and numb.

Elated and troubled.

The combinations of contradictory emotions are endless.

And then, as if someone turned on a light.

I’m back.

The world is right again. Light. Bright. Simple.

Until another wave crashes over my head and the cycle starts again.