I can’t be the support she needs. She’s been calling me every day now. I know she’s scared, as am I. This wasn’t what I planned for. We weren’t even dating. We messed around a few times, I thought we were just having fun. It’s been 2 weeks since she first sent me the picture. There it was, two pink lines. She was pregnant, and I was a mess. I’m only 26, this was not in my life plan…well not now at least. I don’t even think I can be in a relationship let alone be a father right now. I want to travel and live my life freely. In all fairness she did give me an out.

I can never forget the words that came out of her mouth “go live your life, I’ll go through the pregnancy alone if I have to” the tears streaming down her face. Her words soft but cutting into my heart. “I will not stand in the way of you living your life” she continued. How could this woman be so selfless and let me walk free? “I will never neglect my child, I am just afraid, this isn’t what either of us had planned for ourselves” I said. For the first time ever I feel wetness on my face. Am I crying? I am a man, I don’t cry. Yet there I was crying. I will never be a dead beat father. I will be there for my child. I want to be there for my child, I just don’t know if I can be there for her.