Not this again.

I always tell myself it’s going to be different this time. But it never is.

Always the same panic. The same sweat running down my back. The same short breaths high in my chest.

I did everything right this week - ate right, slept right, worked out, tried those meditation recommendations from my friend.

And all for what? To feel the exact same?

People are noticing I’m panicking. And it’s not just in my head.

No person is typically this sweaty and this red. The idea of a smile or a laugh is incomprehensible.

How do I get out of here?