“I’m sick and tired of feeling like this, the feeling of being alone, just being okay and desperate to breathe again. I’m going to end it, I’m going to end it now,” says Anne

Anne walked into the bathroom, took her clothes off, and proceeded to run her warm bath water, naked she walked into the kitchen and grabbed the sharpest knife, her favorite knife and the knife she knew that would get the job done. Anne ran the water too hot, so she had to run cold water for a little bit to cool down before she got in. When the suicidal feelings start to come in, it isn't just any regular feelings; It always feels like life is already being taken away from the mind first before taking away from the actual physical body.

Anne waits on the toilet bare behind, watching the water run, waiting for it to cool down. As she waits, she examines her left arm; the right one is already cut up and used. Anne finds the area Anne wants to cut and positions herself in the bathtub while still letting the water run to keep the water warm. As she gets ready to cut, she has a gut feeling telling her to hurry up and go faster, so she cuts. She sees a wire poking out and thought it was just her imagination, so she cuts again this time; she gets scared but is interested in shock to see what it is.

Anne is thinking that her mind is playing tricks on her and that it's coming from maybe the shock that is coming from her profoundly cutting. To end it all, she slits her wrist, and wires start to jump out of her arm like a jack in a box; wires were popping out everywhere. Curious, Anne got out of the tub with blood dripping everywhere, and as Anne walked, she followed the wires, picking them up piece by piece. They were taking her somewhere, but she didn't know where.

Following the wires from the open wombs of her arm, she ended up in her closet; there is when she found the rest of the cables tangled in a corner. When Anne looked down, it was a white note planted on top. The message said, “Turn around, there's a table behind you; on it, you will find a deck of cards and four separate cards lying face down.”

Anne turned around and picked up the four separate cards. They all meant a different meaning; the first card grabbed off the table was the life we were all given; the second was a card with all the resources that could help shape the life you want. The third one was a different life of what could be, and the last one was the life that was wanted.

Everyone can live the life they desire, but it takes a lot of hard work to get there.

“Place your hand over your heart, can you feel it? That is called purpose. You’re alive for a reason, so don’t ever give up.” – Unknown