If Only I could say all of my regrets

Before I have to take my last breaths

So much I could say

With so little time left in the day

For tonight I leave you

Hoping everything you said was true

Especially the I love you

For tonight I'll start a life that's completely new

As I get ready for bed

A pulsing beat starts in my head

I realize once I go to bed

I will be dead

For if I stay up all night

Maybe then I have a chance of being all right

But if I go to sleep

Maybe then I won't have to weep

I could stay will you

So I could hear the word I know are true

I think I'll stay up most of the night

Then I know I could try to make things write

Or Maybe I should just weep

And cry myself to sleep

I get under the cover

Ready to discover

What lies for me in my dreams

As I sing myself to sleep

The next morning I wake up

My wakeup is very abrupt

I realize I have not died

Even though I thought I might

I inhale deeply

And fall to the ground weakly

Even though I tried

I now know I haven't survived