I used to think I was a beautiful butterfly

Hanging there in it’s cocoon

I waited so long to come out and shine

Hoping it would happen soon

I had an image in my vision

A beautiful creature shining bright

Who never knew of indecision

And who always did what was right

But when I finally did come out

Ready to finally strike

I looked at myself with fear and doubt

For what I saw, I did not like

I expected a slender and streamlined body

And colours so bright they could only impress

Instead I was chunky and my shade rather muddy

I was covered in hair and I looked like a mess

I slept all day, couldn’t rest at night

My life seemed to lose all its meaning

I didn’t fit in, could not do anything right

The only thing I was good at was dreaming

I almost gave up, I nearly caved in

My only option I believed

But then came a light, a love from within

I sighed and felt so relieved

Yes I am chunky and life has been rough

All that you can see on my face

But I am so sturdy and I am robust

And I need to live at my own pace

So I changed my surroundings, rethought my own life

Reflected on purpose and needs

I’m not just existing for others’ delight

I’ll go where my guiding light leads

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Note:

I am not the person I envisioned when I was eighteen. And thank god for that.