i always thought ethan was insane when he thought someone was following him. my whole family would laugh whenever he mentioned it, but, as the days went on he looked worse and worse, his hair was greasy and messed from being in bed, he couldn’t sleep and had heavy dark purple bags under his eyes, he was biting the skin off of his nails and lips so much that they became raw and were almost always bloody.

a few days before the accident, march 14th, he was going insane, his eyes were bloodshot, his face was pale, and he just seemed in a state of illusion at all times. always i’m his own head, now looking back on it, probably to distract himself from what was happening in real life.

anyway, on march 20th he definitely wasn’t okay, it was hard for him to do anything, even walk or talk. we finally got him up and took him to school. something i wish we never did.

i bet you can guess i wasn’t the happiest when i found out my 13 year old brother went to go to the bathroom in 3rd period and never came back.

for months my family was mourning, we couldn’t get over the disappearance of ethan, i mean he was our family of course we missed him! we still have a little memorial for him but- what the- sorry one second there was a tap at the window.