How am i supposed to get over it

It meant so much to me

I deserved it more than anyone

A year of hard work, tears,sweat and hurt

I changed who I am for it

Just to have it rubbed in my face every day

When I lost it

It broke me a little but I kept going

I faked a smile everyday

But now I know there is no point

I’m never gonna get it because I’m me

I give up…