TW:Vent ahead :)

Burn,burn,burn,burn,burn,burn.

I need to burn.

I need to feel something,

A n y t h i n g

Like a moth attracted to the warmth and light of the flame,

I am attracted to the pain.

I need to feel something,anything other than this constant state of drowsiness,i need to break the never ending cycle.

It’s become too hard to even get out of bed on a morning,enough so that i have to wake up 2 hours early and still just barely leave the house on time.

I need help but im scared,

All i do is wallow in my own pity and put on a show for the people around me,

I know they hate me but why do they pretend they dont? It just makes me feel worse.

I just want someone,anyone to be proud of me.

Im just so exhausted...