All day today, all I could think about was her. She’s my person. When I hear something funny or see something beautiful, she’s the one I want to tell. One day, I’m going to marry her. I texted her when I was still at work, but she didn’t answer. I know that she doesn’t check her phone much when she’s out and about, and maybe that’s exactly what worries me. The more time that passes, the more anxious I get. What the fuck is she doing? Isn’t she thinking of me too? If I wasn’t working I’d text HER back. I know she’s seen my text. I bet she went to meet someone. I don’t trust her. She lied to me last week. She said she’d been home all day but when I got home she was dressed with makeup on. Why would she do all that just to stay at home? What the fuck is she hiding?

Tonight is warm. I sat around in bed all day and when it finally started cooling off, I just had to get out of the house for a bit. He’s been really jealous lately and a lot of the time, I don’t go out because I don’t want to hear what he has to say about it. Not that staying home helps, either. He never believes me when I tell him I’ve just been home all day. I know he has low self esteem- I care about him more than I can put into words. I want to help him, but sometimes it’s hard. He said he’d start going to therapy. He promised. Maybe I’ll find some good conversation downtown. I could use a bit of human interaction. I don’t even know if I’ve spoken out loud today even once.

Three more stops until mine. Almost home. I need to smoke a bowl. This girl stresses me out. I know it’s just because I love her so much, but damn! Sometimes it makes me mad. I feel like she has all of the control. Wait- is that her walking towards downtown? What is she doing? I knew she was up to something! Now that I’ve caught her, she can’t lie! I’m going to find out why she’s such a BITCH.