In the kitchen

At night

A glinting urge

Catches my eye

This strange creature

I’d never noticed

This blackness

Crossing my brain

Was this normality?

First time I’d questioned

An unordinary want

For a drug

A drug that numbs

A drug that takes it away

A cold, simple pain

That blocks hot anger out

I’m hungry

Once more

Aching from deprivation

So drawing my tools

I feed myself

With starvation

Of warmth.