I want to go into the dark

I’m tired of the light.

It’s not bad, right?

I just want some peace

Comfort

Silence

I won’t be gone.

I’ll just be… in the corner

The little attic

AirPods in

Can’t hear anything but the music

Trying to tune out the world

Escape my thoughts

Just for

a second.

Bc I’m abt to have an emotional breakdown

A mental breakdown

Be overstimulated

Lose my mind,

My senses

Dissociate.

My body would rather escape the pain after all the emotional abuse I’ve been through

Rather that than face my phonophobia

My ears are ringing

& my body shuts down.

So if you see me

Leave me in the corner

It’s not where I belong, but it’s where I shall stay for now

Just for a bit

I need to take a break

Breath

Calm down

Pause

&

Reset.

Just… let me be.

You can’t help anyways, & unless you insist it’s not a bother

I’m not going to talk

But I will feel absolutely terrible if I waste your time when you could be doing something so much more fun than sitting w/ me while I try process everything.

So

I promise you I’m fine

& even if I’m just saying that

I will be okay.

I have to be.