i felt my fingertips start to shimmer with sweat

a single tear fell from my green irises that made my skin grow cold

i’ve never dreamt of a word so resentful

but she loved to peek in here and there, in between a beat and a siren

high alert

skin deep

racing feet

one, two, three

what is going on with me?

panic in between my rib cage with a little taste of courage peaking through

all together, it was laid out for me

what do i do in a place so far from my head?

my body is alert but my bones hurt

and i want to scream but the noise that comes out from my lips is silenced with her

anxiety

you fooled me and i am stuck to this ceiling

i can see my body floating but i am not actually there right?

what is happening?

you control me

you hurt me

and you fooled me yet again and again

you stop me in my tracks and i am tired of this game

looking down towards you

eye to eye

three words form out of my aching eyes, as i knew they would

“i’m upside down and i fear that you have won this time.”