I don’t like expressing my emotions

i’m very bad at it.

never did.

never really wanted to even

try to express them

until i saw her…

Suddenly all i could think about was her

the way she walked

the way she talked

the way she looked

the way she dressed

everything about her was stuck in my mind

i couldn’t stop.. Am I falling in love ?

with another girl.

she has ginger hair

canine teeth as she smiles

I always look at her , her hair , how beautiful she looks smiling.

She smiles so nicely i wish i could see it everyday and night.

she’s good , at everything you can

wish for or think of

she’s everything that’s i’ve wished for so i began to anonymously write to her

i put notes in her locker because i’m too scared to express how i feel. I don’t know what to say , how to show it.

So i show it all through notes.. Putting them in her locker everyday

expressing how i felt about her

how beautiful she looks

about her smile & her hair

her outfits she wears

maybe one day she’ll find out who i am

how i admire her from afar

how i love to look at her all the time at school

how i enjoy her company secretly

my emotions are one thing

that i’m not good at.. I wish i was so she knew.. Knew who i was

knew how i was..

I wish my emotions didn’t get the best of me.

One day i did it , I expressed my emotions to her at her locker as i was giving her face to face to her. expressing my emotions finally

“It was me , writing those letters to you so I thought i’d give one to you in person face to face” She looked at me silently… Like she thought i was joking. Like it was a joke and it wasn’t true that i was writing the letters to her and putting them in her locker , she looked at me up and down..

Looking at my black and white checkered shirt i have on , black and white mini skirt i have on as well as my thigh highs and black boots with my puffy tight curled hair that’s brown. She looked at me her hazel guys meeting my dark brown eyes she takes the note out of my hands and walks away, not saying anything. Not a single word to me. I watch her walk away confused i stayed confused the whole school day as the next day came around i ignored her… I ignored looking at her as i opened my locker and saw a note in it I grab it and open it to read it. “I’ve been watching you for awhile putting notes in my locker and i wanted to write one back but i didn’t know who to write back to.. As i write this to you i want you to know i don’t express my emotions either , And I like how you admire me.”

I couldn’t believe it , that she liked me back , me being good at everything besides expressing my emotions and falling in love. I finally found it.. And she’s exactly like me.

I look at her at her locker.. Two people who aren’t good with expressing emotions fall in love with each other , What are the odds.