Across the room our gaze lock. You always looked away first, but my heart still fluttered. Joking with our friends at lunch, for just a second, you would look at me. Your laugh was never because of me or for me. But everyday I looked forward to hearing it, and I’d die a little when I didn’t.

When it was just the two of us, after our friends left, you would talk to me, take care of me. Was that just friendly? You bought me snacks, but then again, everyone else got one too. Did the quick glances mean nothing to you? What about when we all ran around aimlessly at night, when you ran beside me? How about the time you carried my things home, made sure I was safe?

When the confession left my mouth…I knew nothing would be the same ever again. You were always at arms length, yet I was greedy to hold you close. Now the consequence of a terminated friendship will shadow me. I can’t help but smile at the fact that we were once friends, all the memories, even if that is all I will get.