I’ve always felt funny about being needed

At least by adults

Children I understand; they can’t do much without you for a long time

And even when they can, they still need your purse, your clothes, your car

But why do adults need other adults?

It feels weird

I mean a need is something you can’t go without

Water, food, air

Those things that sustain us, allow us to move forward, beyond

So I guess what I can’t wrap my head around is

Why would somebody need me

Me?

I don’t think I want to be needed

Except the children, of course

But after being pulled on and at and having my time demanded by a small person

I don’t want a big person doing the same

Being the center of someone’s life is like being onstage by yourself under a spotlight

Some revel in the attention

It makes me want to hide

It’s lovely to be wanted, missed

But needed?

Why do you feel like you can’t be without me

Me?