I excitedly tell you about my life

Only for you to dim the sparkle

That’s in my eye

Why did I want to tell you?

I look to you for comfort

You’ve been there too

Only for your discomfort

To win, you left me behind

I struggle with my dreams

There will always be bumps in the road

You tell me to quit while I’m ahead

But this is just a bump in the road

You call what I look up to and admire

Trash

Just because it’s not quite up to your

Standards

Doesn’t mean it’s

Trash

One man’s trash is another’s

Treasure

I constantly seek your approval

Why

All you do is

Shut

Me

Down

When I need belief and love

Where all I’m getting is

Disbelief and doubt

Clothes on my back

Food on the table

Roof over my head

Shouldn’t I be grateful?

There are those who wish they had

But I have

That’s the bare minimum I need

To survive

Why am I here

If I need to be grateful I

Have what I need to live?

You tell me what you think I should do

Pushing your agenda if I don’t agree

But it’s my life and if I can decide

How I live it in whichever

Circumstances arise

You use someone else’s suffering and fear

To push your moving agenda

So we can depend on you?

Yeah right pal

I don’t think so

We tiptoe around your temper

Wondering what will set it off

I may be upset and screaming back

That doesn’t mean I’m hungry

You think you know us but

Really you don’t

I’ve tried to let you in

But you shut me down

Every time

You wonder why we

Push you away

When we have the chance

Thinking it’s not possible

We would want to push you away

It’s obviously brainwashing

We can’t think for ourselves

But

I HAVE A BRAIN

I HAVE MY OWN THOUGHTS

and FEELINGS

You hurt them

Beyond repair

I don’t know if I can trust you

With my thoughts

With my feelings

With my things

You care about us you say

You love us you say

Where were you when we loved you?

Our love’s run out

Beyond caring

What you think

She’s tried to reach out let you in

You turned it into a competition

Should I try?

Is it worth it?

Will you listen or just

Dismiss it all away?

I want to care

I do care

Yet I’m afraid

Of what I might find

When I reach out

Will I find

Understanding and trying to

Correct and change?

Or will I find

The same results

From years of trying?