Every day is the same,

day in, day out...

Wake up, work, eat, sleep, repeat...

No fulfilment to be had,

no enjoyment to be seen...

Such is my current life...

But it wasn’t always like that...

I wasn’t always so pessimistic and dreary.

It all started

when I met him...

He was the only one to not be outsmarted,

by all of my harmless, yet marvelous pranks.

Nilsy was his name.

He was much younger than I,

despite his ginger hair,

he was surprisingly tame.

Kind, gentle and calm,

by no means, a perfect man...

However, despite this,

I loved him anyway.

Unfortunately, something was very badly amiss...

You see, in my eyes, he was the ideal partner...

But there had been something he had been hiding for quite a while...

What he told me,

was what sent me off to my own personal destruction...

“I’m sorry... But women don’t interest me...”

The words repeated as if they were on loop

An endless loop in my brain...

And with those fatal words spoken,

he was gone...

Gone out of my life,

Forever...

I never saw him again...

That was it...

I fell into this endless loop

of misery, monotony and mental illness...

Without that perfect mate,

sometimes, I even forget the date...