My mind is always open

That's what I like to say

But it's not what it sounds like

I don't mean it that way

I 'm doing fine in school

Which is enough to shut them up

However what's inside my head

Is an endless dreamers hub

It's like I'm constantly living

Hiding my point of view

I won't be a liar

Until someone finds out the truth

I bitch

And I borrow

I beg

And I steal

Yet somehow through it all

I convince myself it's not real

When I close my eyes at night

I don't see the black void

I hear music

See starlight

My one moment of joy

Soon enough

I watch as it fades far away

And I'm bombarded

With the hundreds of lies from today

Attention

Attention

Is that what I need

I keep writing words I know no one will read

In a world full of good

I relish in sin

It's not harming anyone I say

As long as I win

It's lies, they say

You're a liar get a grip

They think I make it up

For the sake of it

The truth, I say is that sometimes it's hard

My head gets mixed up and listens to my heart

When something plays out

I repeat it you see

Though later I'm told it was all just a dream