I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t invisible,

Except the times that are the scars from when I was little,

I try to forget but they remain irreversible,

It started early in life when I was left laying on the floor,

My dad drank and one punch always led to many more,

Like a never ending storm,

The fists would hit liked lightning and sounded liked thunder,

I prayed someone would care like idk maybe my mother,

On the couch she’d stay like a ghost without a care,

Even then I was here but I was never there,

Young and alone left with only pain and fear,

Life would continue around me yet all I could do was stare,

I didn’t talk much because that only led to more abuse or being ignored,

I either stay in my mind or go outside and explore,

Silence took hold of me when my screams remained unheard,

Everyone was the same to me and made me feel like dirt,

It happened so much it got to a point where I didn’t hurt,

The only things that seen me was the voices,

They started out small but became a deafening noises,

I had to choose between two unchoosable choices,

I chose to disappear, the lesser of two evils,

I’d hide all day long or I’d be condemned still,

They would break my spirit as my heart would start to chill,

I felt less than human just a frozen stain,

A whisper lost in the wind, a picture without a frame,

Invisible to the world but alive inside the pain,

A ghost in a house whose heart bleed like rain,

When I started school I thought that maybe it’d change,

All the other kids hated me too so I chose to remain,

Along with the voices in my head,

That would tell me I’d be better off if I was dead,

They couldn’t see what I could see,

I was already dead since the moment I was conceived,

An insatiable desire that never found any peace,

Just pieces of a child left behind and unseen,

A forgotten dream that ceased to me,

Just moving through life like a well oiled machine,

With a hollow voice drifting in a sea,

All but gone in a hole to deep,

Everyone walked over it as it slowly filled up,

Hiding from the world I kept my eyes shut,

Trying my best in this nightmare to wake up,

I never did just remained closed off and sealed up tight,

A child of neglect a creature of the night,

In the dark unseen was the only time I felt alive,

Invisible then and still today, a spark waiting to ignite,

To burn down this prison and walk with pride,

For invisible or not till this day I somehow survived!