I know every detail about every version of herself she has ever been

But is that for the best. What if I wanted to forget?

Anxious and critical and a failed perfectionist

I wish sometimes I could be someone I never met

Because for better or for worse,

Herself is me

And with every change and phase the same question remains:

How do I become the version of me I want to be?

But maybe it doesn't have to be impossible

I can write the details of my next version day by day

Make changes and be better on purpose

And one day soon, I can proudly say

I know every detail about every version of herself she has ever been