I cant bring myself to look at you anymore

To meet the eyes I’d been so familiar with.

Eyes I’d grown up with are colder, stranger than before.

I don’t know who you are anymore.

Your knocking on my door but I cannot let you in.

The monster hangs behind you.

Hiding as it sinks into your back.

You offer support but your support isn’t supporting.

Instead it’s poisoning.

You offer comfort but your comfort is no longer comforting.

It strangled me instead.

You are not accepting.

There is too much of the monster in your head.

Filling your stomach with lies that spill out your mouth.

You push those lies down my throat in the form of roses with thorns.

They look so pretty but cut up my insides like knives.

I’m coughing blood and petals from those lies.

While you stand and stare in surprise and ask why it is I cry with blood on my hands.

I’ve locked you out

Locked myself in.

To hide from you and the monster within.

The door stays shut, you’ll never been allowed in again.

So the monster stays outside.