Its the first day going to college and im already quite tired

All of this new social stuff, surrounded by friends i never felt- liked-

Me for who i was, but hey i never tried- to-

Figure out if i was ever treating anyone right

Escaping my own home to a place which treats me the same

Just numbers on the papers that im failing like my grades

I feel things come quite easily but talent never did anything right

Two hours in a library and i feel the pressure rotting my mind

To be the person im supposed to be

Its quite the possibility

That the more i talk,

The more i breathe

The more i walk

The more i see

The more i laugh

The less i cry

The jokes that i say

All of the time

The more i conform to their game

That college makes me very tame

Its the first day going to college and im already quite tired

Combatting my insomnia, just wanna sleep at night

Yet my mind is racing, reflecting all the same

Creativity not memory is coursing through my veins

Its the first night after college and im sitting all alone

Suffering with thoughts and prayers that i will never know

I neglected all my friendships, the connections I left behind

And now i write a final line before i embrace the night

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Inspired by a song with a similar name

Might write more

Depends on how time flows

Idc about the prompt, what are you gonna do? Shadowban me?