I’ve created a monster A soul that is afraid to feel too deeply A brain that tells me of imaginary dangers A body that forgets how to carry itself And I’ve created it all to hold In a fortress of protection A love that only belittled and betrayed Broke and ripped open healing wounds With envious fingers And half smiles Dripping with false stories Of my failures I created it for you, This monstrous version of myself, And to you I return it For I am building my soul A new temple Which you cannot enter Your footsteps will never Echo down my hallowed halls Your inventions and stories Will not be told here Your hate disguised as love Will not bear the gaze Of newly cleared eyes Your chains and fallacies Cannot hold me any longer I will feel deeply I will scream the name of every emotion If I so choose I will calm my over worried brain With love and the safety of my arms And I will walk and dance on strong legs And the whisper of quick feet Beneath my strong body I’ve created a new beast I call her by my own name