I’ve created a monster

A soul that is afraid to feel too deeply

A brain that tells me of imaginary dangers

A body that forgets how to carry itself

And I’ve created it all to hold

In a fortress of protection

A love that only belittled and betrayed

Broke and ripped open healing wounds

With envious fingers

And half smiles

Dripping with false stories

Of my failures

I created it for you,

This monstrous version of myself,

And to you I return it

For I am building my soul

A new temple

Which you cannot enter

Your footsteps will never

Echo down my hallowed halls

Your inventions and stories

Will not be told here

Your hate disguised as love

Will not bear the gaze

Of newly cleared eyes

Your chains and fallacies

Cannot hold me any longer

I will feel deeply

I will scream the name of every emotion

If I so choose

I will calm my over worried brain

With love and the safety of my arms

And I will walk and dance on strong legs

And the whisper of quick feet

Beneath my strong body

I’ve created a new beast

I call her by my own name