Maybe we should have taken him more seriously. Maybe I should have tried to understand what was really going on in that head of his. But what I do know, is that you cannot ignore your mental health. It would start small. Little things that he would point out to me and not drop. “That woman had 5 piercings in one ear. 5! And it’s the 5th day of the week. On the 5th day of the month! Do you know what that means, Kyle?”

No, no I didn’t know what that meant. And I didn’t care. Because it didn’t matter. And I just ignored it. I ignored him. I was tired of his little quirks. Now I would do just about anything to bring him back and chase after whatever delusion he conjured up again. I’d do it just for him. Then at least he’d still be with me.