Arachnophobia-the intense and irrational fear of spiders and other arachnids like scorpions

I have arachnophobia and the worst part is, is that it is so bad I can’t even kill the little devils

I always see them, if there is one nearby I see it but I can’t kill it because of my irrational fear

And I wish I could say that it’s rational but when I am walking in circles around my kitchen table crying and screaming and clawing at my skin and ripping my hair out because I can feel them scuttling around every terrified inch of my body...I can’t call it rational

I think the worst part is I can’t kill them and sometimes my mom isn’t home to kill them either

My little brother is home but for some reason he’s now too scared as well and with my older brother off at college and my dad in an urn my mother is the only one to which I can turn

But she has a life too, she can’t just focus on us because she needs to have another life or it’ll all become too much so I let her live her life while it seems like I’m sacrificing mine but I’m not

it’s just a devil, just a small one that looks like a giant in my imperfect eyes and I’m crying and screaming and clawing and ripping and wailing and wanting...

Wanting to have a friend who instead of laughing at me will come to my aid

Wanting to have a friend like me who is ready to drop anything for anyone

Wanting to have a friend with a little more Hufflepuff in them because gosh darn it hufflepuffs are better than anyone else

They aren’t pushovers and anyone who says so can be eaten by the devils that ravage my body and enter my mind as I try to sleep and ruin my days and my nights and the in between and will last forever in Jeremy bearemy where the only place I’ll be safe is the dot of the I

But I digress...we are not here to talk about Hufflepuffs or endless time, we are here to talk about my fears and the disease I have that maybe you share because a phobia is a disease.

Phobias are irrational.