I'm a different person now 

I feel like all I feel is down

I'm oppressing my expressions to minimize my indisgressions and avoid your aggression 

I can't feel

I feel too much 

I feel like your going for blood 

You won

I'm exhausted 

I'm tired of the game,

it’s always the same,

my mind is in flames,

my life without aim.

I’m walking in a shadow and my shadow’s ashamed. 

I've changed. 

I'm different. 

I did it for me. Subliminally for you.

You knew it too.

You know what I’ve been through, how my own hell ensued

I've changed 

I'm different 

I thought it was for the best

I thought I had done it, I thought I passed the test.

What I didn't know is - it's impossible, the test never completed. You're never satisfied, my demons never defeated. My confidence is fleeting, my heart retreating, repleted. 

My mind suffocating and my self worth maltreated.

I've changed

I'm different 

I'm choking, I'm through

I can't deal, I'm different. Because I loved you.