I’m so done

I feel like I’ve run

My time

And it’s time

To fly

Away or lie

Down or..

Something….

I looked away

She looked concerned.

I looked annoyed

She switched her ways.

She began to mock

And I hid

I hide.

I began to hide.

She makes fun and cries and says-

“They don’t care”

“They hate me”

“They’re mad at me”

When really-

All I can do is cry

And sob in fear

At the thought

Of the loss

Of my maybe still one and only

Best friend

I have my first period and hang my head with a glare.

In second I fall asleep and cry.

I’m third i space out.

And by the end I’m all worn out.

But I see her and so is she.

And all I want

All I wish to be

Is with her

By her side

While she cries-

While we both lie

And die

And sigh

Because I know she’s overthinking-

And overwhelmed-

And she hates herself-

And I swear to God

I’d rather go to hell

I’d rather jump off a fucking cliff

And end it all

Then continue

And continue

On without her

Because I depend on her

She depends on me

We used to be one

Not split into three

I just wish she would open her eyes a little wider

And maybe she’d find

She’s not the only

One who feels that way

Because no matter how much I pray

I’ll never find the right words to say-

And I know she’d never even think about it.