Sex seemed so far away,

It was never meant for me.

My first boyfriend

Bless him,

Never awoke that need.

In the sheets

I thought

It would all click

The lust, the desire, the passion,

From the first touch I knew it would not.

I thought about

The straight lines of his chest,

Him rigid in my hand.

His bony hips against my leg,

Everything felt like a guess.

I had a dream that night

Lying alone beside him.

Glossed lip between by teeth

The soft curve of a hip.

Of a waist so slim.

I awakened that night

Wishing his change

The smooth of her leg,

The pitch of her voice,

Erotic feelings so strange.