(Warning: this thing is kinda weird and just a thingy I’ve been stressing over.)

I lay down my head, tuck myself beneath my snuggly warm comforter, and close my eyes. My body is clean and lotioned with lush Japanese cherry blossom; making me smell like, or what one would say, a grandmother. My thick hair tucked into a bonnet. Now all that’s left is for me to sleep.

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Whatcha doing, baby?

Tryin’ to go to sleep?

Aww,

It’s funny that you think you can.

What the hell? First off, you are me Why would you call me baby? Second off, shut up before I take some pills.

That’s a lie You’re afraid of pills, and holes And shots And if your crush is asexual

You too! I have to go to sleep Right now! I have a unit test tomorrow.

But…

You could stay up all night

Thinking of Rayburn and Oswald

And their next sweet scene

Tempting, But no.

Yes, you would rather Stare at the ceiling And think of “Honey Bear” If she kissed y—

ALRIGHT! ALRIGHT! Shut it! Fuck OFF!

Wow!

Feisty aren’t you?

Stop talking, Your making me uncomfortable Why is your voice that low?

Because you hate deep DEEP voices…. But also high pitched ones. Why can’t you choose?

And why can’t you let me go to sleep?

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I feel a pair of hands tugging the comforter off of my head and tucking it to my chest.

“Goodnight, Hollow,” my mother kisses me on my head. She walks back out of my dark room, turning on the fan.

My wonderful Mummy.

“Night,” I mumble. I squeeze my eyes tighter and try to blank my mind. But what pops up is not sleep, it’s—

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Oh!

So you are horny!

**I was close enough **

Oh my dear lord.

_Now, _

What would Honey Bear say

If she saw what you were thinking?

Shut UP!

You say that an awful lot.

Oh my god OH MY GOD

Oh look

It’s getting worse

Oh—OH

Wait, wait!

Let me see

…Hollow!

Haha! And you told your mum that you’re straight

I am now!

She doesn’t like me back

She can’t like me back!

She never said that she Was

Asexual, just that she

Thought_ she was_

Same difference

I say you kiss her hand!

That’s what you wanted to

Do before anyway

Oh, and hug her too, and—

I get it,

I get it

But she’d probably just give me her confused smile and try not to disappoint me

I don’t want that

But you haven’t tried

I can’t My step-father’s job is too important My mother’s job is too important And my stupid feelings will just get in the way

Ah.

Oh.

Why are you so surprised?!

You’re me

You already know this!

**I dunno **

**You make us do this **

_Mh-hmm _

Will you let me go to sleep Now?

Sure

Thank you.