If only I could die,

If only I could fall from the sky,

Why why why,

All I did was cherish him,

And all he did was torture me,

He left me in the ditch,

And made it to the point that now I always flinch,

He destroyed me,

If only I could turn back time,

If only I could change his mind,

If only I could find a way,

A way to make his day,

If only everything would have worked out,

If only we could’ve stayed as friends,

But no… if only are a past and a future awaits me… maybe it has a secret being held that I shall look forward too? Of will I fall to my doom, be on a gloomy side, be tired all the time… I want to fight off this negative energy, but it’s all that surrounds me.. except for the dust of happiness. I want to reach it, but how….?