Thank you

For everything

Of the things you have done

Thank you

For the fear

Of having no where to run

Thank you

For the pain

That left me in tears

Thank you

For the trauma

Over all these years

Thank you

For scaring me

Almost half to death

Thank you

For neglecting me

Only praying to be fed

Thank you

for making me

A better parent than yourself

Thank you

For showing me

What not to be myself

Thank you

For lying to me

And breaking my trust

Thank you

For pushing me away

Making me need to readjust

All of these things

Makes me wonder

Why even bother

And how

All I ever wanted

Was someone to call father

So thank you

For making me

Afraid of loving

Thank you

Dear father

For nothing.