The day turns night and dark clouds not only covers the sky but it covers me. I spent the whole day laying in bed pondering about how I can relive a certain trauma. How can I prevent it, how can I have a better reaction time. How’s echoes my mind like owls hoo’s. I didn’t know it was possible to miss a meal while so consumed in my head. Sad thing none of this was in my control. As I snap out of it its already 10pm and I have 20 missed calls and text asking where am I? My friends are piss I stood them up but I know they will never understand my anxiety. Crowds and public places is hard for me to be in for a long period of time. I always believed that anything can happen because this world is so dangerous and unpredictable, yet its out of my control. Tonight I am going to meet my pissed pissy drunk friends and relinquish the hold anxiety have on me. I am only in control of me and my destiny. Tonight, I am going to let go and have fun.