Closed mouths don't get fed

It's been nine years in this relationship

and I'm still not wed

Could it be another in his bed?

Could it someone other than me

on his mind?

Could it be that he's just chosen to waste my time?

Keeping me close but never locked in

Insecurely holding me

Holding me back from my husband.

Let me not think too into it

After all if I wanted to know

I could just ask what the wait is about

I'm fearful of the answer

Would he change and want to get out?

Leaving me with nine years of wasted time

Nine years that could have been all mine.

Closed mouths don't get fed

But I fear if I open mine

I'll get an answer that I'll dread.