wish
If wishes fell like rain, then certainly I am a storm.
I yearn for a life better than mine
I rely on shooting stars and dandolians to determain my fate
because im too depressed to take charge of my reality
I know I am luckier than some but I cant help fantasizing
I wish I was prettier
I wish I had more money
I wish my body didnt look like this
I wish my teeth were whiter
I wish I was smarter
I wish my personality was more likable
I wish I didnt have all these diagnoses
I wish my family was different
I wish
I wish
I wish
all day sometimes
I blow out the candles on my birthday cake
“I wish to be happy”
I find an eyelash on my cheek and blow it away wishing to be okay
but no matter how many wishes I make nothing seems to change
I give up on shooting stars and dandolians to determain my fate
I am the decider of my reality