Thirst is the mother of invention

Doesn’t mean I need a connection

For this kind of pain, there’s no intervention

I hate myself for wanting your attention

I beg you to leave and go in your own direction

Please don’t even bother with useless objections


Thirst is a curse I was born with
My mother says I swim in it
Wanting things beyond my reach

Fixing a fight, then fighting the fix

Desperate to do something I never did

So far away from the finish line, I give up and sit

But it doesn’t matter because I can taste it

The thirst never leaves me
Overwhelming any hope of victory
To quiet it, I give into every vice I see

Hedonistic to the nth degree

Finally lay in the bathtub wasted

My mind jumps to the conclusion I’m hated

I can’t find the words for people I love.

My shoulders bear the weight of

endless expectations I fall short of.

So many times, and I don’t know why,

I ghost people - I just can’t reply

So I sit here examining my mind

Wondering how to break inside

How to tear the haunted house down and start from scratch

Maybe it’ll fix how my heart and my mind are a hopeless match

kmf